The night is becoming my worst time of the day, I'm starting to dread it. I need to stay awake for hours to muse before I will be able to drift off to sleep. Sometimes, I can't sleep at all. I lay awake, thinking and reminiscing about everything I miss and loved. And with that, a sudden sadness captures my heart that never really leaves, and then, it starts burning. It's becoming a bad habit I don't think I'll be able to break as much as I want to. I lay ahead thinking that maybe I chose the wrong path. Again. You may think I've learned my lesson, but I haven't learned a thing. I don't know how many more steps I must take to get on the right one. That's the part that sucks, we have no one to turn to when it comes to this point of life, no one to guide us. And each time we choose the wrong path, we break and we fracture. It's one hell of a frustrating situation to be in. We are all left cracked and bruised and begging silently to be bandaged back up, when the only people who can do it is ourselves. And I am now fumbling in the dark, I've lost my own glow. My dreams are all burned so bright from afar until the disgruntlement they provided me with blew out their light.
But I can set myself on fire again, just give me time.
The funniest thing happened last night. I find it funnier than the random guy pleading me not to shake so he wouldn't steam at AAR concert. So, my sister and I were watching Paranormal Activity in her room. We were grumbling on and on about how boring it was, I mean half an hour had passed and nothing scary even happened. Just after a scene that caught us off guard and made a pair of arms magically found it's way wrapped around my waist lolol, then I went to the bathroom for a quickie. And when I got myself settled on the bed again...
The toilet flush suddenly flushed by itself even after I already flushed it.
Holy moly. I swear to God we just stared at each other for 5 seconds.
" What the.. "
" Zen. "
" Er.. uh huh...? "
" What was that? "
" I don't know. "
*Continues to stare at each other and decided to ignore it and continue watching the movie.* Then..
The toilet flush flushed, again.
*Jumped at the same time and heads snapped back to look at each other again*
" ZEN! WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!?!?!??! "
" HOW I KNOW?!?!?!? "
" ON THE LIGHTS PLEASE ON THE LIGHTS!! "
" I DON'T DARE!!
PAUSE THE SHOW PAUSE THE SHOW! "
*Hugs each other*
Flushed again.
" PLEASE ON THE LIGHTS!!! "
" YOU GO LAAAaaAAA!! "
" ZEN, CAN YOU PLEASE SLEEP WITH ME TONIGHT?? "
" -.- (I knew she'd say that) "
Flushed again.
" OH MY GOOOOD. "
" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhHHH! *covers ears* LYNNNNN. I'M SCARED!! "
( Seriously, I was screaming)
Well, in the end my sister decided she has more guts when it comes to ghosts than cockroaches while I'm the total opposite so she went to on the lights. Peeped through the toilet before going in. It turns out, it was my fault actually.. hahahahaha. Cause when I flushed it earlier, the button got stuck so it kept flushing by itself. It would have been kind of cool if there was a ghost in there playing with us, wouldn't it? ;0 But what a time to happen while we were watching that kind of horror show, we were seriously freaked out. As for the show, nothing much to scream about except that the ending was kinda scary in a way. It isn't a true story anyway. But for my sister..
" I think we should watch a comedy now or something. How to sleep? Let's watch Gossip Girl! I got season 2! "
Well, there was another bimbo moment when we cooked a cup noodle wrongly. Honestly, how can anyone go wrong cooking cup noodles right? :\ Slap head kao kao I tell you. But instructions were in Japanese so yeah. Well, we threw the whole thing into the bin and cooked another one in the end. And another moment of her boo ing me on the way up the stairs and managed to scare the bejesus out of me by making me scream and almost dropping the cup I was holding. It wasn't funny, but she laughed like mad. -.-" It's hard to believe she's 24 and I'm only 17, HAHAHA.
SPM ON THE WAY
+
PERIOD ON THE WAY
=
VERY VERY STRESSED OUT + PISSED CHIN SUE-ZEN.
I'm so fucking bored staring at books every stinking day. It's making me so bloody depressed for some reason. And the wait for doomsday is really killing me. So frustrating, you know? Waiting for the 18th of November. So yes, for once I wish time could move just a little bit faster. I'm being really serious, fasssterrrr lah. Ugh.
Isn't it odd?
When two individuals who have so much in common, might just be totally wrong for each other?
I can tell you one thing, yesterday was so not my day.
I didn't really enjoy the concert because..
1. I ONLY HAD LIKE WHAT, 8 BUCKS in my wallet? Wanted to buy other food I was craving also cannot. Cipet.
2. We had to wait under the hot blazing sun for 2 hours for nothing. Because once the gates were open, uncivilized Malaysians do not care bout lining up anymore.
3. The queue to get into the concert was freaking crazy and I almost fainted cause it was so humid. And there goes another hour.
4. Small little enthusiastic girls were shoving me hard which was so annoying, so I shoved them back! Everyone got into a squabble with everybody.
5. It rained off and on and we were drenched.
6. As I quote Amelia, we were squashed like sardines in a can. My poor feet got stepped on like 10 times. :(
7. I smelled peoples bad breath once they opened their mouth to scream and sweaty bodies were stuck on my FACE. Fuiyoh, never encounted with bad breath people in concerts before. O.O
8. -You Don't-Need-To-Know-
9. AAR only came out at 9 frigging 30 after all the local artist and by that time, my legs weren't with me anymore. So I didn't jump around screaming much.
10. Basically, I'm not really a big fan of rock bands. But they were pretty good. :)
I KNOW I COMPLAIN A LOT but I wouldn't be if it weren't thatt bad. Cause, concerts are suppose to be like that, aren't they?
The funniest part was...
since we were stuck to each others bodies like glue. Cause really, we couldn't move at all, I couldn't even turn sideways or whatever. -.-" We met a few funny guys who were trying to look at the stage through my camera cause they couldn't see the stage too. It was funny.
" Move more to ur left! No okay right right! No go down a bit! "
" Stop pushing me la! I cannot take! "
" NOT ME!! "
But one of them behind me, his FRONT was pressing against my BACKSIDE, like I could feel his dick. But there were a few times he was like Oh Shit Oh Shit when we were moved by people who were moving. So we couldn't stand it any longer and Amelia was suppose to lead us out of the crowd cause you know lah.. she damn clever to zha people who would eventually zha us. She couldn't find a way to get pass people and I got soooo frustrated I started shouting
" FASTER. FASTER. FASTER!!!! " And at the time, I totally forgot the guy and his front was still against me I starting jumping up and down on my spot with frustration a few times. And he was like...
' OH NO OH NO DON'T SHAKE DON'T SHAKE PLEASE DON'T SHAKE!! "
HAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHA. Super funny moment yo.
Yeah so... after the concert I headed out for drinks and I didn't have a good time there too. Thus, it was a bad day.
Germaine, Xu Bin, Amelia, Me, Amanda. :)
OH MY GOD I HAVE CORPSE LEGS. I don't think the 2 hours under the sun helped much.
No sunglasses really can die I tell you.
Amelia just proved it.
Our hair difference is really b.i.g.
We got in we got in!
I likey! Those 2 behind damn cute.
LOL MY TRADEMARK LA.
I find those thingys really jor deng but somehow I always end up taking them and don't know where to put it and it'll end up between my legs somehow. :\
Malaysians.
I hate sitting behind but I get to camwhore with Ming. TeeHEE.
OH
MY
FUCKING
GWAAAAAAAAAD.
SOMEONE PLEASE KILL ME NOW FOR MISSING THIS.
HE'S SOOOOOO SMILEY IN ALL THE PHOTOS IT'S SOOOO KAWAIII.
THAT RED BOW LAGI CUTE.
ARGHH DAMN HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW.
THOSE PEOPLE STANDING BESIDE HIM AND THAT GIRL IN FRONTTTT, GO AWAY LAHASFLKASSFKAJSF!!!!
PLEASE COME BACKKKKKKK. :(
