Is it time to make ammends?

Was clearing up my drawer and was scanning through my letters/notes/cards received from various people throughout my entire 18 years of life. They really brought a smile to my face, reminiscing the good times and realizing just how fun the old days were. So much love, so much fun, so much joy. Everyone should totally dig out their old letters, you'll be amazed just how much memories will come flowing back! There is a 98% chance you'll either smile or laugh.

These are the stack with random cards made for me from my best friends, letters from my favourite school teacher, primary friends(there were all in chinese, omg.), apology/explanation notes, anonymous random pick up notes from high school, love letters, birthday cards, etc.

Which brings me one subject. I have a slight tinge of hope and expectation that you still read this page once in awhile and I wonder... In all the beautifully decorated cards you have given me, do you remember writing....

"Forget about the past and erase all your bad moments and keep the good ones". Did we do it? No.
"You play an important role in my life. " Am I still playing that part? Or any role at all?
"I love you. I did, I do and I always will. And I really mean it. " Well, do you?
"I hope you won't ever forget me. " How could I ever? Will you in 40 years time?
"I'm sorry if I ever offended you in any way. " But you didn't say sorry the Last time and you hurt me terribly, so much, too much.
"I miss the days when you and I used to talk every night, go out almost everyday, picking noses together. " I never wanted to admit it but I really miss them too.

Omg, there are just too many. How could such a beautiful perpetual friendship could have turned out into such an ugly one out of nowhere? I never saw it coming, never. We were like ink and paper, like peanut butter and jelly! Like GLUE. We thought nothing could ever tear us apart. Things haven't been the same again ever since that strain that came in between. I don't think we could ever go back to the way we were before anymore. Those few years would just have to be a memory.

My advice is to treasure every friendship you have right now. You'll never know what might happen later today, tomorrow, the day after. Something could just snap and your friendships would be over before you realize it. Be careful in every move you make, in anything you say, be truthful to your friends, try not to disappoint, spend more time together, look past our flaws and concentrate more on our merits, have heart, patience, and give everlasting love. The best you can ever give. And most of all,
don't give false promises. (Especially the ones you know you'll break.)

Before I go,
Check this out!

My letters to primary school friends and teacher were all in chinese! And they were all this long and at least 2 pages long with cute adorable colourful papers. I can only remember certain words but the rest.. is a blur to me. I'm so sad I have forgotten my chinese. I've wasted 6 years of my life learning it!